it's 2:30 in the morning. i've been up for a while with a coughing husband and a barking dog. zack came into my room around 1:00 asking to crawl in bed with me because he was "scarwd" and i caved. he snuggled up next to me and two minutes later, both of his hands were pulling my hair at the scalp... that's some scary dream! it took me a couple of minutes to release his grip and since then, i've been awake. i don't like random thoughts running wild in the middle of the night. i feel like there's absolutely nothing i can do (that's productive) so here i am on the blog.
tonight i am going to attempt to write about the trip i took to atlanta with my sisters, almost three months ago. i've tried several times before to document this trip, but the words never seem adequate and i always give up. while laying in bed tonight i realized that it doesn't really matter
what i say about the trip long as i write
something. i will always know how i felt and as long as i show a few pictures, those feelings will come back. all i need to do is get it in the archives... so here i go.
i have 4 sisters.
my oldest is much wiser and more practical than the rest of us. she opted out of the trip because she recently had baby #7 and was in the middle of planning a wedding (she was the caterer, decorator and wedding coordinator. my parents are so lucky to have her for a daughter...)
my youngest sister couldn't make the trip either. she was in the middle of a college semester and was getting married (she wasn't in charge, but had a little say in the wedding plans :) that left me and my sisters just older than me... deb and i decided to fly south to atlanta to spend a few days with kristy who recently moved back there. it was totally spur of the moment. i was gone for five days and my husband wasn't able to take a minute off work-- so my friends really stepped it up and made this trip happen for me. i still owe them for the 120 hours of childcare.
nothing really significant happened on the trip. well, accept for the fact that the three of us came back completely changed women. what i mean to say is that we didn't really DO anything out of the ordinary. we stayed up into the early morning hours talking each night. we made dinner together, watched several hours of "sister wives" on TLC, went to work with kristy (she and her husband own a daycare), did a bit of shopping- mostly at thrift stores (it was in atlanta that i committed to being
fiona for halloween and only had a few days to get costumes ready for my family). the only thing we really got fancied up for was a weekend LDS conference in atlanta called
Time Out for Women.
this was my fifth or sixth TOFW conference. most of them, i've attended with these same two sisters. this particular one in atlanta didn't disappoint. it was uplifting and motivating. i should write about all the things i learned, but it's been three months and i don't really want to pull out my notes from the conference right now (it's now 3 am, people.) but i will share some highlights and pictures.

first of all, before we even entered the conference room, people were asking my sister debbie for autographs. she looks a bit like one of the performers hillary weeks. we thought it was funny that people wanted to take pictures with/of debbie. after it started, it got worse... eventually we made them take a picture together because people could not tell them apart. hillary made it clear that deb was more tan than she was and asked if i could photoshop her in the pictures to look like she'd been at the beach. both hillary and deb are mothers for four girls and spent a while chatting. i also talked to her about my adopted grandma bev olson,
who i nominated for a contest hillary held for inspiring people. Bev's nomination won and she and hillary talked on the phone, etc. hillary still remembers her after two years. hillary is an absolute doll and is such a talented performer and speaker. i totally related to
this song and
this song and
this song. worth watching.

i was also able to visit with
a friend's mom who spoke at the conference. we were interrupted because people thought deb was hillary... and unfortunately we didn't get to talk as long as i had hoped. but emily watts is such a light-hearted humorus author and presenter. i think i will forever remember her stating that whether we believe it or not, all of our children will eventually learn to use the toilet properly. so looking forward to that! potty-training is my least fave thing about being a mom.
the highlight for me (and probably everyone at the conference) was listening to mariama kallon speak. she was raised in africa and witnessed the murders of her parents and siblings.

she survived so many terrible things and found hope after recieving a humanitarian kit (toothbrush and shampoo) from the LDS church. she later found the gospel and ended up serving a mission on temple square in salt lake city. we teared up while talking to her. she hugged us all saying "I love when sisters come together! I miss my sisters so much!" (one of her sister's legs were chopped off right in front of her. she witnessed her being raped and later killed. you can read more of her story
here or
here or watch part of her story
here. you can also buy her story on DVD, but i can't find the link. it's called Delivery of Hope. look it up... she' truly inspiring!

the last night i was there, we met a dear friend from home (wj) for dinner at the cheesecake factory. Lori was especially missed at this dinner. she and monique have always been close. mo is beautiful inside and out. we reminisced about the past.. laughing so hard and cried a lot too while staying until they kicked us out of the restaurant. I just love that girl!

we stayed up EVERY night past 2 am, but one of the nights we had a fashion show in kristy's garage (it was the only place we could be without waking anyone up). i think we laughed the hardest here... i want to say kris almost peed her pants because she thought i was so funny dancing around in this dress. i wasn't planning on posting this pic, but why not? i have no shame
anymore. we've shared clothes for years and years... i am not really the same size as my 85 lbs sisters, but we can still trade because we've gone through fluctuation during pregnancy. i love coming home with new clothes and not having to spend a dime on them! just one of the many benefits of having a sister (or 4).
i had SO much fun being in their "backyard". they live on a golf course... in view of a gorgeous lake.

addie and carson and i spent some quality time skipping rocks and talking about how important it is to have a dog. i knew before i left for this trip that a dog was in our near future, but i think it my time at the lake with addison and car-car that solidified our decision. i literally saw a picture of Sunny in my head and knew that a Golden Retriever was the right dog for our family. call it inspiration or whatever you will, but those walks to the lake were special to me.

one night (way past our bedtimes) the kids and i played an intense game of freeze tag on the golf course. mind you, it was pitch dark, we couldn't see anything and accidentally ran into each other several times. right before this picture was taken, i pulled out my cell and called my boys. each of them were able to talk to their cousins. i was trying not to be too emotional, but we live too far away from each other! these kids are the most adorable ever. i told the kids that we should move out to georgia for a few years to be with this amazing family while they are young and can make memories together. now i just have to convince the husband.
being away from my husband and children for 5 days was easier than i thought it would be. i missed Simon's first steps... and still don't regret it. i needed to leave. it healed me in many ways. i've talked to kris and deb several times about this trip and we all agree it was life-changing. at the time, we were all going through our own struggles. we had intense therapy sessions and counseled each other on how we can be better in our marriages, as mothers, as sister-in-laws, in the gospel. these two amazing sisters are so special to me. they challenge me to be better, in every way. they are beautiful, sassy, strong, generous, determined and loving. i am so grateful to have them as life-long friends.