It was a difficult day for me. the older boys are out of school and I want so badly to do some FUN things around town. But I have a million and one things to do before Christmas. And my baby is sick. She has been stuffy for a while, but Sunday she started throwing up. Not just a little baby spit-up either. She has projectile vomit. You can hear her tummy gurgling from across the house. I don't know if she has a flu bug or is allergic to something I ate, but it's been 48 hours since she's kept anything down.
For every load of laundry I wash and fold, there are 3 loads getting dirty. I can't seem to catch up. Before the dishes are loaded from the previous meal, my little men are hungry again. My Christmas cards arrived in the mail at least a month ago, and they are still sitting on the counter, just waiting to be addressed and delivered.
Aaron called me yesterday to ask how things were going and I just broke down in tears. I feel like someone has given me a LONG list of things to do and then tied my hands behind my back. I can't seem to get anything accomplished. I have cute neighbor gifts to deliver and a ward newsletter to write and a house that looks like a tornado just hit. I want to crawl into a cave and never come out.
Simon could tell that I was a little out of sorts yesterday and kept following me around saying, "I sorry, Mommy." It was so sweet, especially because he had done nothing wrong (this time). When he saw me changing the baby for the 20th time yesterday, he ran into her room and grabbed a clean pair of pajamas for her. When I saw what he came back with, I smiled. He had grabbed an old pair of pajamas from a box of boy clothes I need to take the garage. I have given out most of my boy things, but there are a couple of outfits I am keeping. This pair of sesame street pajamas has been worn by all four of my boys. Simon wanted me to put it on chubby Roma and I decided to give it a try.
They fit! but barely. the buttons were popping around her round midsection and her back fat was squeezing up out of the collar and added a few rolls the the stinky ones she already has on her neck. She was just.so.delicious. I decided to pull out my camera and take of few pictures of my pant-less 2 year old and his baby sister wearing the pajamas that have been handed down from ALL of her older brothers.
I realize I allow myself to stress about things that don't matter. I think back to times when my life was "easy" but I didn't realize it. In college, I didn't know if I would make it through finals week, but it always worked out. It always does. Next week Christmas will be over and I will look back on it as a happy time with our families and forget about how crazy it was to make it happen. And before I know it, my little chubby girl will be a two year old running around the house with her pants off and I will wonder why I stressed so much instead of enjoying her when she was a fat baby, squishing out of my favorite sesame street jammies.
I found these lovely gems on my camera this morning. They were taken by a mystery child when Romy was feeling better. We're hoping she gets back to her smiley self soon!








not this cute anymore!


