Friday, August 21, 2009

long lost blog

Last night, I went to the movie theater with some of my girl friends. We saw this movie:


I related a lot with both women for different reasons. Julia Child's personality was as large as her 6'2" frame. Her passion and enthusiasm for life (and cooking) is contagious. Watching the movie made me more comfortable in my own skin. Both characters were madly in love with their husbands and I can never get enough of real, true, ordinary love stories. Luckily, I have been blessed with a fantastically supportive husband who knows about my crazy up-and-down personality... and he sticks around anyway. I have never thrown a tantrum on the kitchen floor like Julie Powell, but if I did, I am pretty sure he would still love me.

Oddly enough, the movie made me think about the relationship I have with my blog. It's been 8 days since I last posted. Eight whole days of not blogging (or thinking about it) used to seem like an eternity. These last eight days have been filled with field trips, a weekend getaway, lots of homeschooling, reading, playing, cooking, shining mirrors, making cookies, ironing my husband's entire closet, carpet cleaning, and lots of laughing. The kids have said such funny/adorable/hilarious things. I know it's a shame that some of these memories will be forever lost because they won't be documented, but I am a much more balanced person now. I go days without checking my email or turning on the television. I spend lots of quiet time meditating, exercising, reading. I write less, and although I seem like an internet introvert, I believe I am living my life with more purpose and meaning.

A year ago, there were 800 people stopping by on a daily basis to read this blog. I was writing to entertain and to relate and to connect with total strangers. Today, I have about 80 readers and even though I am not as open or as personal as I used to be, I feel as though the world is as it should be. I do not want to be a famous writer. I am not getting paid to impress or entertain. I am living a balanced life and giving my family 99% of my attention. My house is cleaner, my husband and I are closer (he's always hated the blog.. still does) and I am more balanced in every area in my life. I feel like I am doing what I need to be doing-- which is just being present for my family. Whether or not life gets documented, doesn't really matter-- because it's being lived. And when you're enjoying life-- it flies by. I cannot believe September is almost here. How?

off to make omelets for breakfast!


8 comments:

Graton said...

Hi Janet,
I'm still reading, and I am very happy for you in your balance and happiness.
Best,
Graton

vickersfam said...

had a great time last night too. So glad you have your life in balance right now. It's a good time to, during pregnancy and with little ones at home.
Mine seems to be getting there too, but I still have much to go. Thanks for reminding and inspiring me to keep things balanced!

Valerie said...

I was getting stressed at how "behind" I am on my blog, and then I thought of my great-grandmother. She lived to be 100, never blogged, probably never kept a journal, or even a photo album, but the memories we cherish of her, will always remain. Perhaps not all memories need be documented.

Wendy said...

It seems a lot of us are re-evaluating our relationships with our blogs. And I agree that every bit of life doesn't need to be documented. I used to feel like a slacker for not writing down all the cute and funny things my kid says, but now I don't care because I've got more time to hear her say them.

Jill Bowcutt said...

Oh good. Thanks Janet. My blog flat out sucks! And people tell me that all the time. I'm also slacking on my journal and my kids journals. Maybe I should just combine them. Anyway, I'm happy and my family is happy. That should be enough right? Thanks for the reminder :)

Smelsha said...

Good for you! I still love checking your blog but I'm glad you're doing what works for you. That's what life's all about right, making adjustments along the way to try to find a good balance :)

PS - I've been reading up on homeschooling and am preparing a long list of questions for you...be anxiously awaiting an email.

Hoosier Mama said...

I want to see this movie sooooo bad!! I hate blogging right now - I'd like to get rid of it, but my parents would chop my head off if I did. I could use a good dose of something that made me feel more comfy in my own skin.

Brandy said...

balance is good... my blog is kind of the last thing on my list... and i wish i could be more current, but you're right... life needs to be lived.