missing him

I once had a boyfriend who, in a last-ditch effort to keep me from breaking up with him, told me that I would NEVER find anyone who would love me as much as he did. That comment haunted me for some time afterward. Not because I wondered if I had made the wrong decision in breaking up with him, but because being with him was so exhausting for me. It felt like so much WORK to be in a relationship and if that was as good as it gets, if that was as much as anyone was ever going to love me, than I would rather stay single forever.

Then I met someone who truly loved me. He loved me even if I didn't love him back the way he'd hoped. He loved me despite my huge faults and rollercoaster-like personality. He never pressured me, never made me feel guilty and never told me what to do. In his last-ditch effort to try to make something happen with our relationship, he told me that all he wanted to do was to take care of me. And that is exactly what he's spent the last decade doing. Taking care of me and making sure that I am comfortable and happy. I am not the easiest person to get along with (he will testify to that) but I am a better person just because I am around him.

It's been three days since I've seen him and I miss him terribly. Granted, I am busy catching up with my family, staying up late talking to my sisters, playing with my kids and their bazillion cousins, hanging out with my girl friends... and it may seem like I don't have any extra time to even be thinking about my other half. But I think of him often. I miss him when I lay down at night in an unfamiliar bed and always wish he was there to keep me warm. I feel grateful that he's working hard to provide for our family. He takes care of me and makes me feel secure and safe and protected. I am so glad he's coming to join us tomorrow! It's a short trip for him and a lot of traveling, but he's coming because he loves me like no one else ever has.


This is my cute husband after he returned home from the Priesthood session last weekend. The minute he returned home, he sat next to me and told me the impressions he had during the session and how he wants to be a better husband and father. After he finished talking, he changed his clothes, paid for movie tickets for my sister and I to see a show & sent us on our happy way. He stayed home with 8 little crazy kids and entertained them so I could have some R&R. He is always sacrificing to make my life better. And believe me, ever since he came into it, my life has been so.much.better.