not this cute anymore!It's already been a loooong week and it's only Tuesday. I am without a car and without a husband (he's back in court again and we're lucky to see him before bedtime.) It's frustrating but no car + no husband = no bra... and that's ironically uplifting. Preschool is back in session for Zack.. and the older boys are back to hitting the books. I am trying to dig up motivation to get them excited about statistics, adverbs, the nervous system, etc... but when I don't care, they don't either.
I'm struggling trying to find TIME for everything. I know it's what everyone struggles with, but I promise, I'm struggling more. Christmas break was awesome, but with so many visitors, we didn't relax much. The kids schedules are completely whacked. Simon is trying hard to give me as much sleep as possible, but we are all deprived. ALL three of my kids have terrible coughs. And just when all of the other mothers with school-aged kids are feeling relieved to send the kiddos back to school, I am feeling tons of responsibility. I used to be able to do it with 3... that was comfortable for me. But 4 is a killer.. even after 2 months with Simon, I'm just as crazy as the day he was born. When do you start to feel normal again?
I feel so fickle because even though homeschooling is time consuming and stressful, it's also very rewarding. I love (LOVE) hanging out with my boys... (except for the albino child.. :) While Zack was at a friend's house, Ben Luke and I got cozy on our new rug and enjoyed the fake fire. Yes we may have spent 3 hours talking about fractions and division, but in the middle of everything, Luke would say something funny and we would all giggle. I took a picture because I wanted to remember how I felt... overwhelmed, cozy and happy.
Then I took a picture of sleeping Simon because he's just so...... perfect.
(enlarge if you want to see his lashes.)
(enlarge if you want to see his lashes.)
On to other topics: My 2009 blog book is underway. As I type, 900+ pictures are downloading... Looking through my posts (225 from last year) it's unbelievable that there are several important stories that I haven't shared. Some are too personal or too vulgar (kidding..) but there are others that should be up on this blog sooner or later... But probably later because most of my free time will be spent organizing, changing fonts and getting ready for printing. This makes me feel justified in the all the time I've spent documenting.. I love reading the little conversations that would have been forgotten.. and I can't wait to have it sitting on my bookshelf. Yeah for BLURB!
Other things that excite me are the upcoming TV programs. Six months ago we got rid of our cable package. We now have the local channels and the LDS station. That's all we need, if anyone ever actually needs TV. We still have a DVR and that makes my life better in so many ways. I am counting down the days to American Idol... if only Adam Lambert could come back and walk down those stairs in a white suit again. But the addition of Ellen will be a good treat. And sad that I am blogging about The Bachelor, but when you don't have a husband around, you might as well watch a bunch of hoochie-mamas fight over a guy with a nice six pack. But it seems that no one agrees with me.. out of 312 people who read that post, I have just one comment. I think you are all just afraid to admit that you watch. Come out of the closet, it will feel so
That's how I will end it, folks. Random and unorganized. So is my life.
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Such is the life of 4 kids. I swear, Elliot sent me into a tailspin, and although the overwhelmed feeling is starting to melt away, I have never been so busy in my LIFE!
I think that it takes a good 6-9 months after a baby is born to start getting things down again. The one year mark always gives me hope, as well. It goes so slow and so fast all at the same time! Arrrg! You get tons of props for already working on your blog book and for homeschooling your kids with a newborn and a busy busy husband. I hope your groove finds you soon!
I second Tristie's comment. Be patient with yourself girl! It sounds like you are already doing a lot more than most people so pat yourself on the back, watch the Bachelor and chill.
(PS we get no bachelor in the UK... should I be sad?)
I just love that you homeschool!! I wish I knew where to start so I could do the same.
My fourth was the point of no return. I've been struggling to stay structured and organized ever since. There is too much to do in too little time. I still think home schooling is worth it though.
It takes me three years to feel like I am on top of things again. Hang in there. You are a great mom and ALL of your boys are lucky to have you.
Sarah is 14 month old and I only have the two to deal with, yet I feel like my life is completely unorganized and chaotic.
I think its all part of the human experience and just being a mom. I don't see my life getting any less chaotic in the near future...
Janet,
Have you reminded yourself that your Kindergartner is doing FRACTIONS and DIVISION when others his age are learning to count and add single digits? maybe you need to tell yourself that when you feel frustrated.
in your case, I don't think there is another option but to home school. sorry. and good luck.
Luke is in first grade.
Janet - how do you have a DVR and NO cable? I'm all for no cable, we got rid of it 2 years ago, but I am still DYING with out my DVR! Please inform...
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