not this cute anymore!
We want to move. At least, we want to move out of our house. We can't seem to agree on where we want to move to... and this is is a minor problem.
Aaron wants to move to Utah. Down the street from my siblings and parents. He thinks the kids should live by their cousins. Don't get me wrong, the idea sounds amazing, but I don't want to. I think our kids are close with their cousins. We see them often (enough) and their relationships are strong and good. And I love having visitors-- when family comes to stay at your house for days at a time, you are able to create memories and experiences that don't happen when you live next door. (obviously I realize there are a lot more things you can do together when you live in the same city.) But it's winter for like 6 months of the year there... and I hate cold places. I like snow for like two days, while visiting. I prefer palm trees and swimming pools and pina coladas.
I want to move to a farm. Or to Georgia. Preferably a farm in Georgia, actually. I really want some LAND and we can't get it here in Vegas... or in Utah, really. I don't want to live in a neighborhood if we can help it. And I feel like we can help it. I want to live in a small house with a lot of space to run and be free. Georgia is beautiful. Houses and acres of land are affordable. AND we have family there. Not a lot of family, but some. And that's more than we have in Vegas.
Can we make friends that become like family? Yes, we can and we have. But the older our kids get, the more we realize that it's not the same, no matter how hard we try. I have a huge support system of women I love and will miss if we move away. But my husband doesn't have that. And even though my kids have darling, wonderful friends, they aren't cousins.
Above all, I want to spend more time together as a family. I don't care if we have to take a huge paycut, or if I need to start working a graveyard shift, but I want Aaron home more. But I know this puts a ton of pressure on my husband who not only wants to provide for us, but has to pay back loans from school. I hate that we have debt and I really don't want my kids to follow down the same (educational) path we did. We went to college without a real plan and now we're paying for it. I really would LOVE to start some kind of small family business so we can WORK together and teach them not just about making money, but how to invest, save, and plan out their educational goals before they go to college.
These are the thoughts going through my mind at 4 am. I wish I could sleep, but it's impossible these days.
Sunday, February 9, 2014
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You should move to TX! There is plenty of land and it is beautiful. The city we live in has such a sense of community, it's like those small towns you see on the movies. The trees form canopys over the roads and the government isn't as corrupt here, yet.
You should move to TX! There is plenty of land and it is beautiful. The city we live in has such a sense of community, it's like those small towns you see on the movies. The trees form canopys over the roads and the government isn't as corrupt here, yet.
I feel like I know how you feel. I want to move SO badly. But... where to? We've got crazy school debt and it's not like my family is in any of the same-ish place. I grew up not knowing my cousins, or even my grandparents for that matter. So, anything you decide will be good! Be grateful for options! Your kids are lucky.
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